Today, to be honest, I feel like curling up in a ball in a corner somewhere and hiding for a while. I swear, I don't think I will make it out of college alive, and I'm on my (hopefully) last year. I just want to go home to the fields of green grass, round bales everywhere, my horses and dog, my family and old friends, and just RELAX. All this stress has taken way too much of a toll on my body. I need my small hometown life back, along with my accent which seems to have been diluted since leaving home. There are a lot of things I wish I could take back, things I should have done differently or acted differently, but I cannot. There are now things I have to do over and things I need to start and finish by this weekend. Can I do it? Honestly, I have no idea. Today, in order to survive, I am throwing whatever is holding me back aside and crawling forward. Think positive, happy thoughts and smile while I enjoy my Chamomile Calm Tazo Tea in the back secluded corner of Starbucks. I must take my own advice. Oh, How much easier it is to help people get through their problems than it is to figure out my own! I must bite my own bullet. Ok, I'm done with all this self-talk.
I met a new professor today that lectured in my 8-hr class who immediately knew what I was going to school for. He asked the class who all was going to teach K-6 grades, and I excitedly shook my head no while whispering to my neighbor, "No way, not me." He saw me, and said "No? Let me guess, you want to teach twelfth grade, maybe college English right?" I just stared at him, with my mouth gaped open, and nodded a yes. Wow, this guy is good. Then, he asked if anyone was thinking of coaching later on during their career. Of course my friend and I raised our hands. He looked at me and was like," Ok. Softball right?" Did I mention how awesome this prof was?! I mean, I really would like to get rugby started up back home, but I also love softball. He just read me like an open book. It was later that I realized I wore my glasses instead of contacts to class, and I've always been told I look like a teacher/librarian when I wear them, so that was probably what gave me away. Typical, natural blonde me.
That's all for today! I'm pretty sure I am forgetting to say something, but it can wait.
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